10.26.04

Anger Father. It gets the best of me, WHY? Why do I get so impulsively angery? Father is it a repeat of my childhood? Is it the thing I know best? In the moment does all reason fly out the window because that is what I saw growing up? Father, we must break this cycle together. Father it is not a task or character trait that I can manipulate on my own. It comes out in the most random moments, the most random times. Father when it is not convenient for me, it comes out. Like a child if I don't get my way or something inconveniences me...they get it.

Maybe thinking I will get some feeling sorry for me, how twisted is that? The product of guilt and shame or the lack of knowledge and know how to react any differently. Father help me to be more patient with all especially myself. Father help me to develop a sense of awarness about myself and a God given strategy to deal with my impulse in the moment. Father I pray I not lay waste to the relationships I have and the ones to come in my life because of my impulse and lack of self control.

Amen